Chaos isn’t a negative term. It isn’t a positive term. It’s just a term. That is why I believe it is such a good theme for my work and a great word to describe my life as a whole. My life has been anything but easy. My house is a battlefield. I am a civilian caught in the middle of a war, but not between my parents no; but between my sister and the world. My sister is minefield. My parents are soldiers and I am just a civilian caught in the middle. Every step I take could be an absolute disaster, but it also could be just another step. Stepping on a land mine is a bad thing and i pay the consequences. But it doesn’t kill me, it may set me back, but I am strong and carry on through.
Throughout the war, there have been times when I thought all was done. Finding a mine that had destroyed itself, it made me realize although the danger scares me, the lessons I learn while going through the mine field are something I could never live without. I came to realize I wasn’t looking for the end of the battle field, I was looking for a way to protect it. A way that others could see the mine field as something positive. But it’s hard to show people that something so deadly could be a positive thing. But I know deep down it is. And the soldiers in this battle, they know as well. But they are soldiers and they must fight.
These soldiers want to get through the mine feild as well; they want to be able to understand it. All we really want is to find out where the mines are placed. But this is no easy task. As I’ve learned in the past few years. Navigating through a mine field is a lot harder than most people realize. And I may just be a civilian but I will make a difference in this war. And I will see it come to an end. I will make sure that one day the soldiers can walk through the mine field without fear after each step.